My therapist says I'm mixed. That would explain how I've been feeling. I just hadn't thought of it. The depression is worsening now and my house looks like it. I did a very little bit of work in the kitchen tonight which is good.


Usually when I'm mixed I don't sleep. I've been sleeping ok for the last few nights but I'm also on a lot of sedation and had it increased a few weeks ago.

My clozaril levels should be back tomorrow. Hopefully I have wiggle-room to allow us to increase my dose without throwing me into toxicity. I have a hard time being too excited about that because my last level was just barely under the too high but not toxic line. But that was about 6 months ago so maybe it worked itself out in that time.

I hate mixed.