I'm slowly getting back into the things I enjoyed doing. Everything kind of fell off when I dropped into a really low phase last month.

It's slowly getting better, on its own but also because I got tired of waiting. I gently pushed myself to do stuff and my motivation is very slightly and slowly starting to return.

I've also been trying to be more mindful when I'm feeling anxious or depressed. I'm just recognizing that something is happening and not doing anything about it yet. But the recognizing does help me relate to the anxiety and depression differently. It doesn't solve my problem, but it helps me see it differently.

My T and I have been talking about giving negative emotions like sadness, despair, anger, etc room to express themselves in healthy ways, instead of trying to turn away from them or suppress them. That's a tall ask! It's not easy but I'm trying.

The road into my situation is very long, so I guess the way out will be long too. One step at a time.