I really have no idea what is up with me. I was all great and then all of a sudden, yesterdy, I am not. I no it's because there is major upheavel inside. Now I think I know why. I told my T I wasn't really ready to work with everyone. I just wanted to get more of a foundation built of myself. I just thought of that. I don't know my feelings are everywhere. I think I slept most of the day to get away from the chaos. I am just not ready. I don't think staying here at my parents house is the best for me though either. I think that is a big piece of what is going on. I was abused alot growing up by them, more neglected though, what I remember of it anyway and here I am staying with them again. I just got out of this situation last February because I was a mess, that's what started me with the assisted living in the first place and here I am again. Though it is temporary until I get my apartment, but who knows how long that is going to take. I am just a mess again and it happened instantaneously. I have been trying to shift my thoughts and everything and communicating with everyone and everything. I was feeling a tremendous amout of anger earlier, but it wasn't even coming from me, I almost went and got help because it got so bad. I am just at a loss at what to do. I can't go back to the assisted living because that is a wreck for me and yet here I am here where alot of nightmares and bad memmories keep hitting me, let alone the old bad feelings all over the place. I am exhausted. I don't know what to do at this point.

Jennifer