wow yeah it has been a pretty active hurricane season i pray for all the families involved. Thats very scary. No i dont have any kids of my own but i had my oldest nephew from the time he was 6 months old till he was 6 or 7. well his dad brought him to my mom and asked her to take care of him but i was the one who did it because mom was in nursing school from 7-3 weekdays and worked from 4-12 everyday. but my nephew told me a couple of years ago that he only remembers me as always leaving. i had to interduce his mom to his kindergarten teacher so that she could pick him up. She has claimed (since mom died) that the reason i had him was that my mom threatened to call the cops and tell them that she was on drugs. anyway he will be 30 in January and has 2 kids of his own, that he has custody of. the oldest one is 11 and his mom just walked away from him and doesnt talk to him or anything,and the little girls' mom died at the age of 23 so he has her too. Alot of my PTSD stem from my sister. She has always been jealous of me and wants mylife and hers too. we went like 20 years without talking really because she thought i slept with her husband. He was only her boyfriend at the time and so she shut me out of her life and married him! but thats just how she is and it has taken me a long time to finally say that im here for her but " if she doesn't think of me when good things happen, then don't only think of me when you need something." and then when my mom died my sister was upset because i was the one on all her paperwork and making all the arrangements ETC. she thought that SHE should be the one doing all that just because shes the oldest.
Anyways i first started getting sick in 2011 it started with my blood pressure and with the meds i started gaining weight and i haven't stopped im now over 200lbs and that plays a really big part of my mental health. I've been bi polar for around 5 years ( and my husband thinks that it doesnt affect him) so he hasnt even looked into it to see how much it really does affect him.
i think the way i have doe this might be the way to do a private message by using the quick reply but we will find out as soon as i quit talking about myself : ) so really look foward to hearing more about you and your struggles and life etc.