I'm trying to stay sober but it is hard, and I miss life before h*ll
Waking up at 6 and going to bed before 11pm, keeping the house clean and don't binge are literally the only achievement i unlocked in years
I am afraid, i lost my network (people) when i turned 30 unemployed and couldn't fight back. Therapist is "passive" and "only" listens and i couldn't handle it when i lost my parents
I was so strong before this phase
To think i was financially somewhere in my 20s and now I am a ghost