@Blueberrybook

That sounds so scary. I'm so sorry to hear about the anxiety and paranoia you've been experiencing about ending up in the psych hospital again. Usually summers are hardest for me for some reason. I tend to go crazy in the spring/summer, and in the winter I can be not fine, but it’s also a more calm time for me. I think because everything is quiet and dead and buried beneath snow and ice, like the world is sleeping, which puts my brain at ease, and then in the spring things melt and wake up and all hell breaks loose!

Why won't your psychiatrist prescribe you prn seroquel for your anxiety/paranoia? Hydroxyzine sucks. Never worked for me. I hope it helps you though.

I'm SO incredibly stressed about Tuesday. I was in a good mood this morning. Listening to some Type O Negative (because you have to listen to Type O on Halloween!), wrote in my journal, ate a delicious breakfast, scrolled on my phone and texted for a bit, took a shower, and then my husband got up and reminded me of the election and mentioned Elon Musk, and my day went downhill from there!!!!