For several years I've done fine all year until January when I get depressed. Last year went better because the second I started having symptoms my therapist contacted my pdoc and my AD dose was raised.


This year I'm scared. My AD dose never came down (and it's maxed out) and now I've got this mixed episode out of nowhere. I've not had something like this in a long time.

I'm sorry that you have so many bad associations with the time of the year. It's hard I know. I think my annual depressions are related to the holidays and my birthday and a history of those times being very stressful.