I'm tired, edgy and out of sorts. I miss T. Plain and simple, I need to connect. Last week my H came in for a couples session on Tuesday and on Thursday I hit a boat load of traffic and was 20 minutes late, so we had a very short session. Plus the session was focused on preparing me for my surgery which was on Friday. (All went well).

So it feels like I haven't had a regular session in a long time and I just miss him so much.
It makes me feel like such a loser in a way. I mean for goodness sakes, why can't I go a while without the individual attention at this point? Why does it never seem like enough? Why can't I enjoy my family and just be grateful? Why do I feel alone when four people who love me very much are here in my home with me right now? Why do I feel weepy? Why can't I just be?

Maybe they were right--I am winging for no good reason.