I can't sleep and have stress chest pains, so I took a melatonin and a seroquel, but that was an hour ago and I'm still not sleepy! In fact, I've never felt more awake in my life. I feel like I just took a steroid or something, instead of a seroquel and a melatonin! I'm listening to the new Cure album (which is quite good by the way) trying to calm down.

I think I'm going to just lay here in the dark for a while. It's raining outside and nice and toasty warm in our bedroom and I can't really concentrate or calm down enough to do anything productive anyway. I want to write. I'm feeling the creative urge. ✨️ Which is great! Means I'm on an upswing.