So sorry to hear about your loss @Blue_Bird. 🫂 ❤️

@Blueberrybook

Maybe your pdoc would be willing to replace the hydroxyzine with something stronger? It's good he's nice and willing to work with you. 😊 Until my current therapist I didn't have much luck with them either, but besides being obsessed with hormones, my current therapist is great. She's weird like me. We really click (I mean, she likes Carcass, Front Line Assembly and Gary Numan, to name just a few). Anyway, so I understand your struggle with therapy. I personally never found DBT or CBT to be helpful (besides the whole breathing thing). Therapy is more helpful for me right now because it gets me out of the apartment once a week and I get to just talk with someone about the way I'm feeling and get some advice (even if her advice while I was hypomanic wasn't very helpful... but in all fairness, she'd never really seen me hypo before like that).