I have been in this place a very long time, so much longer than I should have. I kept hanging onto the hope that if I stay there would be a chance to salvage our relationship. I to said can't, and honestly we are still in the same house, but I am letting him go. Due to financial complications, walking out the door is not an option. But I have told him that I am falling out of love and I no longer want to share a room. I won't go into it all, but long story short, I have battled myself to leave him for more than twenty years. We had kids, I had no job, but in truth it was I who never left. I still love him sooo much and even though we are still in the same house I am grieving the loss of our relationship. I am learning that I too matter and I need to step away and take care of me. Eight years my dear is a long time. A lot of memories and emotions over those years. Letting go is unimaginable when your heart is telling you no. The pain is unreal and it is grieving when you finally let go. Standing firm is a constant battle. For me, I remind myself that I cannot change him and in all this time nothing has changed no matter how many chances I gave it. I have no friends, but with me moving forward maybe that will change. Honey, I hope soon you will move forward. Hold your breath and do what is good for you. In my experience time does not change anything because you hope for more and don't want to let go of the past. The man I once knew left me a long time ago and I have grieved him every day since. I have changed over the years as well, I just had to accept we are not compatible any more. Sorry so lengthy.
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