@volsinchy, I agree with @Rose76, it is easy to stay just a little longer, give into the fear of leaving. Grieving now is will be easier than hurting for a lifetime. I wish I would have stepped away a long time ago. I am inching up on 50 and just now learning to care for myself. I always had a reason I couldn't leave, including my husband say he would let himself die. This was a huge one for me to let go. I am not angry, I just want to spend my remaining time doing what is good for me. There were so many tears shed over the years and continuous heartbreaks. Grieving the relationship that I am letting go now will get easier sooner than all the years I gave up.