And we went backwards again. Back to the beginning. The betrayal. She says it's like the grief cycle: not linear. She said it's like a ribbon. I said it's like getting lost and doing a circle in the desert. She said that even though we're back at the beginning, we now have more experience and more knowledge about how to move forward. She told me this is all a good thing because I'm just processing at a deeper level.

I have session today. I don't want to go.