Hey Scarlet,
I'm so sorry she doesn't understand how this is affecting you.
I feel like understanding the logic of something and the emotional impact of it are two very different things.
'Doing a circle in the desert' really resonates with me.
I hope you will be gentle with yourself, whatever you decide.
Hugs,
Lost
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'Somewhere up above the great divide
Where the sky is wide, and the clouds are few
A man can see his way clear to the light
'You have all the grace you need for today, and today is all that matters.' - Steve Austin