I am so sorry @
Frog4Life for the loss of that one that expressed so much love for you. That must be very rough for you to cope with.
I lost both my parents in the last few years and I did not understand how much I depended on them until they were not here to call up and talk to.
I have gone through a divorce and the more I clung to the hope that they would change their mind and not want to break up and have a supportive relationship again, I suffered.
It sounds like you still have hopes of finding that person he used to be. That must be rough on you.
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CANDC
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