I way, way overdid it today.My pdoc and I agreed that I would try to use my light box for a week and increased my gabapentin 100 mg to help me sleep until this election thing ends. Then we'll discuss changes to Seroquel if needed. I really don't want to increase it and I don't think she does either. I'm on enough meds already. So last night I did sleep better but was still up for an hour and a half.


Today has been terribly anxiety-producing, just like so many of you. I talked to my therapist about it, which was difficult as if we were honest we'd have voted for different candidates. I don't know if he voted for the orange guy or not but we are unlikely to agree on politics. But we handled the discussion well and respectfully which is good. And it helped some.

But I had to go to 3 stores and handle the noise and make decisions and deal with the overstimulation and it was too much. I didn't get home until 6 and I was exhausted by then. I also had to drive in the dark for the end of it and after I hit a deer last year I am very anxious about that. When I was coming down the hill we live on a deer was standing in the road and while I had plenty of time to stop it was still scary. It was a year ago yesterday that I had the accident last year and I've developed a somewhat excessive fear of driving after dark since then.


At this point I'm just waiting until I can take meds and go to sleep. Which is realistically a while off. I'll get my shower soon but I won't be asleep until 11 at the earliest. At least I don't have to go into any stores for a while. I'm trying to ignore the news tonight. When I peeked my anxiety went way up.