I have no clue what happened!! after I left my residential I was doing so well. No self harm or suicidal urges. Told everyone I changed my whole mindset. I thought I did. I don’t know what happened along the way but I relapsed after around 5 months or so. God it’s so disgusting. Even after all the help I got. I dropped all of it. And I cant even do it right. I feel like such a looser. My self harm used to be so bad. Now they aren't like at all. I cant even hurt myself properly, the only thing I used to be good at. I feel bad for my family.

(I also got quite a few cuts infected so I hope I don’t loose a leg?? They look better now though.)