@Rurikawamai it is weird how I mind deals with things. It is hard some of the disheartening things people say when they don't understand something. When I was first diagnosed my Dad wanted to get his church group to come pray over me. It's not that simple. I even had stuff given to me by my therapist for them to read to know more. I don't think anyone in my family ever read a word of it. Being swept under the carpet when you are going through an emotional crisis doesn't help things at all. In fact, it can do the reverse. It seems to feel easier just to swallow it all down and hide it within yourself. I am still trying to kick that demon.