Dear T,
I'm glad we were able to talk about things like that. And that you were open about your reactions, too. It felt almost like a joint therapy session. Or maybe two friends talking. It was cathartic for me, to be able to let out those thoughts (including the dark one about D) and emotions.
I'm also relieved you didn't try to put some sort of positive spin on it. Like you said, the most positive you could get was still pretty dark. I'm glad you're able and willing to go into the darkness with me.
Wait till I show you what my mom said about it--maybe that will help you understand better her effect on me.
Love you,
LT