No session today, but there will be a phone call tonight. Things went from bad to worse. We were emailing about "Why even use less effective birth control if you didn't care if you get pregnant or not? If you knew your chances were high enough?" and feeling betrayed and lied to.

Now I remember: Tuesday's session was about why she didn't tell me that her family planning had changed.

Lost, I'm not even sure she understands the logic let alone the emotions. She keeps referring to it as perceived and not facts. Well, she doesn't say the word perceived. She says "I can see it from your perspective"... Same thing. I told her that's an insult and dismissive. That it's like when people say "perceived abandonment" not acknowledging that it was an actual abandonment. She does not see it from my perspective otherwise she'd understand and own it. And she is not owning it. She says she needs to understand first... Doesn't that mean that she can't see it from my perspective??? Even if she disagrees, she doesn't understand.

I'm so tired of this ****. I just want my old L back.