I suspect that, somewhere along the line, you've been around other males who have a very disturbed, unhealthy attitude toward women . . . and you've internalized it. Maybe it was males in your family . . . maybe boys you hung out with growing up . . . maybe something in the local culture . . . maybe something you read or were exposed to in other media.

Instead of hoping to enter into a loving relationship, you want to find a virgin female you can use for sex. I promise that mindset will set you up for an empty, miserable life.

It's probably not your fault. You're young, inexperienced, and have probably been under some bad influence. Maybe your parents were unhappy with each other.

Some of the richest, most attractive, successful and powerful men in the world have found joy in committing to a women who was previously partnered with another man. That was even true a thousand years ago, when virgin status was highly coveted.

Your main problem isn't having an aversion to sex with a non-virgin. It's a much bigger problem. You want to be able to use someone. This is you wanting a partner you can objectify. Also you may feel very insecure about being with a girl who might compare you with other young men. Your thinking sounds like it might be more expected in a boy about 12 years old. I don't say this to denigrate you as a person, but you've bought into an outlook that deserves to be denigrated. Hopefully, you will outgrow it.

Try talking to mature men who are in satisfying relationships. Ask them to tell you what they've learned about being happy in the company of a woman. Ask them how important virginity in a woman is. Suppose a nice, young, married woman became widowed. Would the men around you consider her of no interest because she was no longer a virgin. Don't widows remarry in your society?

The idea that a non-virgin girl is somehow contaminated and unfit to have relations with is very foolish thinking. Men fall madly in love with non-virgins every day. They sometimes go on to have great sex and real happiness with them. I'm not suggesting you go take up with some low-life female who may carry a real transmissable disease. You won't learn anything about good sex doing that. Great sex is usually requires that two people care for and trust each. If that's not what you're looking for, then you might as well go online and order an inflatable doll and have fun with it.