Yesterday, I officially stopped counseling (at least for now). I decided to go in person-after seeing her for over three years, just sending a message would not have provided me with the closure I needed. She said she was glad I came in to tell her too. It's weird-it's like a weight has lifted off of my shoulders. I didn't realize how much I felt like I had to be in counseling even though I don't want to be anymore. I'm also just burned out from all of the counseling work. I'm nervous about not having regular sessions, but my counselor made it very clear that if an emergency comes up I can message her and she'll get me in. She is starting to practice Internal Family Systems, a type of counseling that I'm not really a fan of, so it's probably a good time for me to be ending seeing her. The few times she tried to use internal family systems with me, it didn't go well.
I wish I would have done a better job of thanking her for all of the help she has given me these past few years though.
School was good today-I got a lot done. And, I was in a better mood than I've been in in awhile.