It's the baby's birthday next week. I wish I could meet him. She said I could, but I'm afraid of crying and upsetting him. I also wish I could get him a present, but if she's going to have 4 kids, I don't think I could keep up with 4 presents a year. And Christmas, too! Best I stick to loving them from afar. But I will get them for their birth a giraffe and I'll make them a blanket. Those two things are important to me. Still, makes me sad.