I was a good mom and did everything for my kids even when I felt the worst but bc of my mental health issues, my children, now 20 and 16, avoid me and do not want to spend time with me. I am heartbroken. My daughter says that I am boring, weird, and crazy and it is true.

Why was I cursed with this torture? I know my life is ruined completely. The future terrifies me. I have no life. I lost everything and everyone. It is completely empty and I am 51 so now it is too late.

I was horribly abused and I am being punished for that for the rest of my life suffering from debilitating anxiety and depression with an empty life.

It is impossible to do anything. I am on medication but it is not helping at all.

I am completely alone. I need support to get through this but I have nobody. I feel imprisoned by my mind and body. They terrorize me constantly.