Hugs Scarlet,
That must be so hard when you feel as though you're on a deadline.
Doing the deep work all the time is hard going, but feeling like you can't do the deep work is even worse, in my opinion.
I hope you continue to find a path through this that works well for you.
Lost
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A man can see his way clear to the light
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