I haven’t done an in depth update in this thread for some time now.

So here’s what’s been going on with me:

I have a new therapist cause my therapist of 8 years suddenly died, which was devastating. This new therapist I’m seeing is really nice and I’m starting to get used to her and she is doing EMDR with me and that’s new to me. It’s like a type of therapy for reprocessing trauma.

My boyfriend of a year and a half and I broke up a few months ago, it was my decision. But it was a well thought out decision, not impulsive and wasn’t anything either of us did wrong it just logistically wasn’t working now that we’re long distance. But we’re still good friends and talk almost daily still. Normally my relationships were really toxic and ended in me and the other person hating each other. But this was a really healthy relationship so it ended on very good terms.

My cat Mocha died last week. I’m really sad about that. But I’m adjusting to life with just me and my other cat now.

In general I’m doing okay. My psychiatrist prescribed some vitamin D cause my levels were a 9. Which is very low. He wants them up to at least 14 by time we retest them in January.

Anxious a lot of the time, dissociate still occasionally and get very paranoid when stressed. But mostly I’m doing pretty well. Although I am really struggling with binge eating. I used to be anorexic binge purge type but it went in the polar opposite direction the past year and I have been binge eating whenever I’m stressed or bored etc which is often and I’ve gained weight which upsets me but I’m working on eating healthier and dealing with things in a healthier way. I think I finally realized the meaning of feeling of emptiness cause I try to fill it with eating, shopping, etc. just over indulging in general to feel something. So I’m working on that too. But yeah, I hope more people post in here eventually