I've been vaping THC as well - It makes me more emotional and cry etc, yet gives me negative symptoms. It also changes my cognition - And I was learning exactly how it does change my cognition (By using ChatGPT).

I feel useless, but I shouldn't care about what people think. Although I balance with that, and allowing people to cause me negative emotions can help with awareness. Cuz I want to live life holistically;

"Living life holistically means looking at life as a complete, interconnected whole rather than as separate parts or isolated goals. A person seeking to live holistically usually aims to create balance across all areas of life—physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, and social—so each part can support the others.

Here are some key aspects of a holistic approach to life:

Mind-Body Connection: Recognizing the link between physical and mental well-being. For example, exercise isn’t just about physical fitness; it also supports mental health, emotional resilience, and energy levels.

Balanced Lifestyle: Balancing work, relationships, health, and personal interests to create a fulfilling and stable life. This might mean not prioritizing career success over personal well-being, for example, or keeping space in life for hobbies and self-care.

Emotional Health and Growth: Giving importance to emotional awareness, healthy relationships, and personal growth. Living holistically often involves developing empathy, self-understanding, and skills to manage stress or negative emotions.

Alignment of Values and Actions: Making choices that reflect one’s true values and purpose, rather than just doing what’s expected or what others want. People who live holistically often seek meaningful work and relationships that are aligned with their beliefs.

Connection with Nature: Feeling a sense of unity with the natural world, which can bring calmness, joy, and perspective. Holistic living often includes practices like spending time outdoors, eating whole foods, and living sustainably.

Spiritual Exploration: Some pursue a spiritual connection—whether religious, spiritual, or philosophical—to find inner peace and a sense of purpose beyond daily life.

In short, living life holistically means aiming for an integrated, mindful approach that fosters well-being across all dimensions of life."