I am feeling much more depressed than I was yet I also am SO irritable. I'm not even feeling patient on social media. Saturday I did pretty well. I helped get the recyling taken care of (we have to take it to a place and sort it into bins) and we took a walk on a trail. Yesterday I didn't get out of my pajamas. I didn't even go to my mom's for supper. I just didn't feel up to it at all. Today I got out of my pajamas long enough for supper but that's it. I acted ok with her I think but I don't feel ok. I talked to my sister on the phone and also sounded fine then. I'm a liar.


To be fair my sun lamp is helping. I don't think it is causing the irritability. It's just mixed and the way it is. The lamp is helping a little. At least it doesn't seem to be hurting and I do feel better after I use it for a little bit. It just doesn't last long.

I just feel bad. Tomorrow I have therapy. Last week we talked about the political situation which was hard because we don't agree on politics. He has no idea how little. But we're not talking about it tomorrow. I'm not talking or thinking or reading about it right now. Too much.

Off to be grouchy elsewhere....