My period makes me want to die. My meds make me want to die, but if I so much as suggest taking 750mg instead of 1000mg I get bytched at because my VA level isn't toxic. Who cares if my AST and ALT are high enough that I will definitely not live to see 50 at this rate? I CERTAINLY DON'T!!!! This heat makes me want to die; I wouldn't be surprised if it never snowed at this elevation in this region again because fk the planet and fk the climate and fk everything. I'm gonna go apply for my passport card and get a good sleeping bag and just head up to the nunavut border so hopefully I don't have to experience a feels like temp of 110 several times at least for 2025.

I can't get into my online bank account because I changed my phone number anad they want "authentication" because knowing my username and password isn't good enough, and their website won't let me email them and of course no one is answering the phones (on hold), and they made me go down for meds today and of course now my gas flap won't even open with a screw driver (latch is fked but I could wedge it open except not today)

I'm going to cancel therapy. Just straight up stop it. All it is at this point is making me feel stupid, but that's everything because I'm a fking dumbass and it's a wonder how I managed to stick around this long. Oh wait, it's becauase this world is stupid proof....

So, yeah, irritability. If I have to do another thing today involving other people, I'm getting arrested or detained or placed in protective custody. If I wake up this way tomorrow? I'm not leaving the house. Fk the meds. Let them send the police out. I don't give a flying fffff

edit: aaand I just put a hole in the wall...nice...