Thanks for the input friends. I’m probably gonna stick with the meds. I’ve been out of the hospital for 8 years now. Before that I was in there a LOT due to episodes so I guess there’s definitely been improvement even if I can’t see it sometimes. I definitely don’t want to end up in the hospital again. I went off antipsychotics before , was still on a mood stabilizer and anti depressant. And it went well. For a year. And then I started having bad symptoms again so had to go back on the APs. Sometimes I just overthink things and get in my head too much I guess. I need to get out more and do something. I feel like on days I spend inside all day I do worse. When I have no social interaction I mean. My thoughts start spiraling.