I’ve come to the conclusion that my psychiatrist is right. I need to stop the THC. It doesn’t mix with bipolar. Last time I was smoking and taking edibles in the spring I got very psychotic and manic and felt like I was on a several week long acid trip it was terrifying. I don’t want to experience that again and that’s exactly what’ll happen if I keep doing it. He was there during that whole thing. It’s not worth it. Sometimes it seems okay but it’s so unpredictable it’s not worth the risk of it going horribly like it often does with me, it’s just one wrong high that could put me in the hospital. And to be honest I never want to experience what I experienced in the spring again cause that was terrifying on a whole new level. It sucks cause I like the fun parts of it like the euphoria. But it’s not worth it at all now that I think about it. I can’t change my brain chemistry so there’s no point dwelling/wishing I wasn’t bipolar so I could smoke weed and not experience the bad effects of it. It just is what it is.