Hi Scarlet,
I felt a twinge when I read your comments about 'not doing anything to fix the situation'.
This is a hard situation to 'fix', because it's not going to change favourably for you.
I'm not sure how comfortable it would be, but could you do some writing/vision board stuff about what a tolerable relationship with L might look like in the future?
What would you need to feel comfortable working with her, and held in a therapeutic sense?
(Note: that will be different than being held in a relational sense.)
Hugs,
Lost
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