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Default Yesterday at 02:22 PM
 
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Had a good therapy appointment. We talked about radical acceptance and also ironic rebound. Ironic rebound is when you’re having thoughts/feelings that you try to ignore or block out, they come back stronger. There’s studies on that. Anyway, so I’m gonna be working on radical acceptance and also exposing myself to things that make me paranoid. Like one of the situations I can’t stand is sitting in silence cause then I start getting paranoid about noises and about my meds poisoning me etc and my thoughts spiral so I’m constantly blocking out the world with my headphones and distractions. So I’m gonna have to work on exposing myself to small doses of silence over time kind of like exposure therapy till it gets easier.

We talked about the THC vaping use. She was telling me about how scary things are on the drug scene now due to fentanyl being cut in with so many things and another thing also that’s out there being put in stuff that’s dangerous. . And just the general risk of having a psychotic episode from weed since I have schizoaffective disorder.

So I’m gonna stop vaping THC and get my payee paperwork signed by my psychiatrist next month to become my own payee. He told me to stop using THC and if I did he’d sign them next month at our appointment.
Was the other thing Xylazine? That's in a bit of stuff around here. Some people like a xylazine+fentanyl combo (tranq). I don't get it... there is stuff that feels better and doesn't have a probable chance of killing you?

I thought NY was a legal state though so you should have safe access, right? Or do you not have dispensaries (we're decriminalized so everyone just goes to ME or MA and just gives them all our money for weed that's just weed and doesn't have fentanyl, xylazine, formaldehyde (yeah, formaldehyde.) instead of maybe funding our own state to work on homelessness and the opioid crisis, but I digress)

I'm sorry. There are so many good reasons to not do any drugs incl. marijuana and derivatives that I hate when people use bad ones. It's like "you shouldn't drive at 150mph because it's bad for your engine if you need an oil change!" ... is "you'll either die or go to jail and you might kill other people too" not good enough? I get some people don't have morals and need economic justification for why running around stabbing people isn't a good idea, but sheeeeesh.

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