Yes Xylazine is the one she mentioned too. She showed me some test strips she keeps in her office for people who are honest about their drug use so they can at least try to be safe about it.

Weed is legal here, there are dispensaries but you can get weed/vapes other sources too though that might be less trustworthy. I do trust the vape I have though cause my sister got it from an actual dispensary from the owner she knows. It was $175 for it so it’s not cheap stuff from an unknown source.

My only concern with it itself is like psychosis. I feel like I’m okay if I just use it once in awhile. Back in the spring though I really over did it with the vapes and edibles and I think that’s the main reason I got psychosis. I think I just can’t handle edibles. The worst I get from vapes is some paranoia. But I did over do those at one point to where so that didn’t go well. My therapist is like a lot less strict about it because she’s a lot younger. My psychiatrist is in his 60s though and he’s very particular about any form of substance use.

Idk I’m kind of torn on the whole thing, I feel like very very light use of weed like once in a blue moon is okay like to relax after a long day, is it the same as having a drink or two after a long day once in awhile? Idk . One thing I don't struggle with anymore is being reckless with substances. When I was a teenager I’d binge drink and overdosed on DXM in cough syrup and combined codeine with it and took all kinds of random crap cause I had zero sense of fear back then. I’ve mellowed out now that I’m 30 I’m not quite as reckless.