Having read your posts, it’s clear that you have had more than your fair share of terrible people in your life. I can certainly understand why you are feeling like life has beaten you down, and you no longer have faith in finding good people.

I think it’s ok to step back, and say “I’ve had enough of people for a while”, and spend some time focusing on you. It can be tough being alone, but it’s better than being with toxic or abusive people.

All I would add is that please don’t give up. I am a great believer that life is precious, and I say that as someone who has on a very few occasions in the past just wanted it all to end and for the pain to go away. Fortunately, I think deep down, I kept a glimmer of hope and focus on this concept that life is precious, and there there is always a way out of the darkness into the light. I hope you can find that path too, and eventually find some peace and happiness.

Best wishes