Struggling with ED thoughts today, some days are worse than others; I swear I will never 100% kick this thing and that makes me feel down Having guilt about eating normally and mostly all healthy. It really sucks.

Sigh. Just having one of those days. My mood is down, my anxiety up. I've had dissociation and panic attacks already today. I was dissociated for a lot of my morning walk though I snapped out of it a bit at the park where I did some outdoor weight & ab machines.

My period is due in 3 or 4 days, maybe it's PMS. The older I get the worse the PMS gets. Speaking of hormones, @raspberrytorte, I have almost ZERO sex drive! It could be perimenopause since I'm 46 and/or meds. Pdoc blames it on hormones, gynecologist blames it on psych meds. I swear, you just can't win!