I stayed home Fri and Sat nights this weekend, whereas normally, I would have ventured out solo each night as I had originally planned on doing.
But in following the blowup that occurred with that woman and her guy friend last weekend, I felt reluctant this weekend to expose myself and be vulnerable to people by going solo. So I stayed in.
And last night, I felt really angry for a while about it, towards the woman for ruining my ability to go out and have a good time. I've had way too many toxic run-ins with females in this crowd.
I have been told I am a beautiful looking woman, and some people have even said "stunning". It is my belief that these toxic females are envious of me.
The woman who came down on me last weekend is in fact, quite obese. She has a pretty face, but she is obese. I am thin, especially after having lost 20 pounds a year and a half ago, and I attract male attention when I go out. I take the time to look well put together, with attractive and/or sexy clothing. I don't flaunt myself and I don't flit around the dance floor trying to get attention. I simply am there dancing on my own, enjoying myself, and stick to myself for the most part. Both men and women typically approach me, versus the other way around.
I've received envy from women all of my life - and that has translated to women being very catty and petty with me, stabbing me behind the back and talking crap about me to other women and men.
To still be on the receiving end of this type of envy at the age of 54 is ridiculous. And that's what happened with this woman. She became possessive of her male friend and extremely territorial, even though they're not dating and despite her sleeping with several other men. And I believe it comes down to her own insecurities and envy.
The night she created an uproar with me and blocked me, she had told me earlier that she is sleeping with several guys. Yet she still had the nerve to act territorial with me over her male friend, acting as though I had no right or business even speaking with him.
And when I told her over text that blocking me was very hurtful behavior towards me, she didn't even apologize! She only just lit into me further about him and I discussing their relationship. I told her it seemed like not only was she being territorial over him, but controlling over what he and discuss!
So she's sleeping with other men, yet I should not have allowed her male friend to drive me to my car that night, according to her. And I should not have been discussing their relationship in any way with him, regardless of them not dating. Well sue me, it naturally came up! Especially after she blocked me, he and I talked about her possessiveness.
So I am left feeling very bitter about the whole thing, and stayed in all weekend as a result.
I will have to see this woman out fairly frequently because we go to see all the same bands. I wonder how many female friends she even has, when she behaves this way. I think she's actually quite disturbed, immature, and unstable. I feel like something is seriously wrong with her.
So I will avoid her at all costs - and him. I blocked both of them at this point.
Tonight I do have a concert, and I am going with an old male friend of mine. I feel much safer going out with someone than solo right now.
The weekend hasn't sucked entirely, but I am annoyed and had felt far better being a solo agent before all of this occurred. Now I am afraid to go out alone.