Sometimes it seems like everyone hates me. People mock me and sometimes it seems cruel and mean-spirited. Someone said I'm not their type and when I asked why they said it's because they like intelligent people. And that just sets me off on a downward spiral of negative thoughts, about how I'm not only stupid but lazy and ugly too, and I've never accomplished anything in life, and I have no redeeming qualities or features. Then people mock me for getting emotional but that only makes it worse. It's hard to go through life realizing no one has ever wanted or desired you, they've only ever been stuck with you, that you've always been a burden and nothing more.
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