I know I'm fked right now. I know. I don't eat a meal every day. I don't stay up for more than 5 hours straight every day. I watch tadpoles in the toilet after I vomit and talk to Jesus as he's walking through the walls. I'm missing extremely large chunks of time. Other people are using my empty brain to think and I don't like listen to them talk about what they do, but do I have a choice? no.

There is nothing I can do at this point unless I want to off myself, so... I'm not going to do anything.