Thinking of you guys and your families, @Blueberrybook and @Crazy Hitch

@Moose72 I hope you can get this figured out soon. I'm in a similar position where meds and I don't get along. Frustrating.

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I see my CM later. Blahhhh. How do I take where I'm at seriously and actually tell her I am really struggling.... in a way she takes it seriously too? Med nurse already told me last week I can't see my pdoc sooner, not like that'd go anywhere anyways when meds seem to either nearly kill me or make me nearly kill myself. I think what I'm gonna do is ask to be taken off the methylphenidate. I figured if I actually take both doses I can kinda function, but maybe withdrawal will slow the rate I'm losing weight.