I tried telling my mom about all this and she said “why do you need to be on these meds? You should exercise etc blah bla blah”. She even went with me and asked my pnurse a million questions a few months ago. Pnurse told her the truth but she still feels the need to criticize the fact that I’m on meds! I’ve been diagnosed bipolar since 2005 and she still criticizes me! Granted I react to every single med I try…..but being unmediated was a disaster when I tried it a few months ago (with pnurse’s permission”). Having a therapist isn’t enough though I really like my new therapist.). I hallucinate, get paranoid, and get psychotic in general off meds. The anxiety is crippling!!! When I am symptomatic I hide this from most people. Even my beloved pharmacist who bends over backward for me said if I get the symptoms on the 200 gabapentin as I did on the 300 just push through it! I am not pushing through feeling faint and dizzy! I can’t drive like that! Ugh. I need my Pnurse back but I have to wait till the 25th!