Hey all! I'm in the psych ward. Lol.

They flew me here on a medical plane.

I was chronically smoking too much THC, and using other things.

I'm better now - I went through withdrawal last Friday, and was hyper ventilating, crying uncontrollably (For hours), felt hot, sweaty, with chills... Suicidal thoughts, headache, mental pain, etc...

I read a text from my mom triggering me, and I pushed my bedside table across the room...

The nurses let me sit in the lunch room, beside a steel door - I put my back towards it, and meditated... Crying really hard .. Feeling the cold from the outside.

They took away the stimulant (100mg of dextroamphetamine a day) cold turkey...

All of my drugs at home are flushed (Cuz my sister and mom were concerned before I went), it was just a matter of time...

I'm doing better now - Doing therapy and exercise again etc.. I plan to not use drugs when I get out - I don't crave anything.. But I really should become a neuropsychopharmacologist or some form of that, pharmacy etc....

The therapy is really good for me. I've been really confused and can't distinguish between anything from anything... I'll be fine..

1M died from the Ukraine war - It bothers me.. But we're infinite fractal prism crystals, and we will all die one day... For now we live, as awareness of eternity - Never the same, with love.... And towards freedom - No matter what part of the simulation we are currently situated in... And if asleep, hope for miracle to wake up, and go to enlightened heavens, where we belong... But to enjoy the now, as it's all we have. And be ourselves, authentically - Instead of running away from the self, through various distractions - To be mindful.. Present. To surrender, allow, do the next right thing.... Find meaning, soul purpose...

But if we're too tired, we're too tired.. Agony is being pushed when too tired (IMO) - You get up and try again - It's the laws of physics.. You build tolerance to pain... And then you can do great things (In comparison to souls that are tempted by evil).