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Originally Posted by unaluna
Yep. I don't advise waiting until they die, altho that works to an extent. But it wastes so much time. So much of your life.
Btw, you missed one - youre in the kitchen, and they walk thru, telling you how badly what you are preparing smells.
You cannot hide your light under a bushel. You have to get out.
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I don't want to wait until they die. I'm trying to get out now, but the harder I try, the harder the self-sabotage boots up. It's really hard to make any progress towards leaving. That's why I'm trying to figure out how to eliminate the self-sabotage system--so that my attempts to leave actually succeed.
Yeah, I've heard it all. My food is too smelly, it looks weird, gross, etc. etc. Literally everything I do is grounds for degradation and guilt, so I sometimes feel completely paralyzed when my 'mother' is around--like the only way to stay safe from her attacks is to do nothing at all.