Maybe there's more than one reason I would like to go a few hours north... I can't go to Canada though because if I told my treatment team I don't want treatment from them they'd probably petition for an IEA and the stupid judge, as they do, would probably find a small nugget of unreason to lock me up like saying "she's a threat because two weeks ago she ran a red light." I need specific authorization from my pdoc planned 3 days in advance if I want two days worth of meds at a time if I can't be down there in the morning for whatever reason. If I sleep until 11am once, God forbid, I get anice welcome from the police doing a wellness check and then interrogated on why I'm avoiding my meds.

But no, I can't "quit everything in a day" because last night I slept through my PM (biggest) dose of Depakote and woke up 3 hours after I normally take it and thought I was going to die or something. Scratched my feet til they bled, my brain just like stopped working idk how to describe it. And I'm not doing well and Depakote has a level check so I can't ween myself off it without risking going to the hospital and either lying and them saying I wasn't on a high enough dose due to low levels or being told I've fking had it for months because I skipped the two nights prior's doses. Might just fking snort those 3 extended release fkers tonight.