I am sorry for your loss @Frog4Life - losing parents is a shock to the system. It must be a challenge to try and accept that they are gone.

When my parents died I felt like an orphan. I did not know how much I emotionally depended on them being there. I have had to find ways to lessen the pain. I feel gratitude for all the kindness they gave me. I stopped holding onto the expectations that someday they would be just like me. They were unique and I am unique and so now that they are gone I can accept that more. I also wonder if they felt the way I feel sometimes as they got closer to the end of life.

CANDC

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