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MuddyBoots · Nov 21, 2024, 10:06 AM

Food and marijuana TW

Possible trigger:

I saw my CM this morning after the med nurse and told her I've only had three legitimate meals in the past week and two of those were aided by marijuana. She's okay with me smoking more regularly if it keeps me alive. I hope it doesn't trigger any psychosis beyond the symptoms I already have (being watched/targeted, occasional hallucinations, sometimes my thoughts get really REALLY disorganized but I think that's more of a fatigue/nutritional deficiency thing). I don't even know if it's going to be enough. Last night I had 5 or 6 hits of Mass dispensary stuff (joint form) and I managed half a bowl of pasta. At least I enjoyed it though and was sad I couldn't do more instead of being so frustrated by the fact in my head right now getting a BSc in math feels easier than cooking and consuming something with the things I'm probably really lacking right now.

I'm back with my cats now though and I actually don't feel as shytty as usual, so it is a good day. It's also like the first good rain we've had since August today. It should be snow though!! It's snowing South of here somehow (see radar screenshot, system's pretty much heading N). How and why is it snowing in Kentucky at 500' but not NH at 500' above sea level? Even Vermont is mostly rain right now and the snow is only snow because you're at like 2000'. I remember shoveling several feet of snow on Halloween! Where have those days gone?