For anyone who lost a loved one to suicide, you may find help by contacting the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. You might be near one of their support groups. Meeting people in real life who have been through a similar experience can be very helpful. If that isn't possible, just talking to someone on the phone might be beneficial.
www.afso.org
Click on "Surviving Suicide Loss" on the left, then "Support Groups"
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