I am not in a good headspace today. I have been up since 3 AM, so I only slept 4.5 hr. I took a 4.5 mile power walk in the dark. I totally feel like quitting all my meds.

I have an extended family early Thanksgiving today with my family. It takes around 1.5 hr. to drive each way. H is driving, but it's a long ride for me, and I'm tired. It always ends up so noisy, and everyone will be all yay, yay, yay about the holidays and how they have completely finished all their Christmas shopping while I haven't even begun). I HATE the holidays. I hate decorating, buying presents, opening presents, extended family/friend meals, Christmas carols, every last bit of it. Oh, and no doubt my whole Republican family will be like, "Yay, Trump won the election! God is definitely watching out for America!" H & I are the ONLY Democrats in my family.

I need to get out of this funk. And my reading has slowed way down too Can't even escape thru books. So sick of this day already, and it's only 7 AM.