Quite a while ago, I met a friend here. We would chat and send each other goofy memes and whatnot.

Almost three years ago, my dad died and was not doing well. I was doing poorly before that because I had lost my soulmate a few years before that.

She was also going through hell but I didn't have the energy to talk and that lasted a very long time. I still don't today, but am a little better.

I know I am a worthless person and sorry excuse for a friend. She is unlikely to ever want to talk again but I would like to apologize to her but don't know what to say.

I don't deserve her forgiveness but I think about her worry every day. Each day that I don't talk to her just makes it harder to reach out. The odds that she would even bother to read it are pretty low but that is okay. Maybe I should leave it alone and she is better off without talking to me?