Whenever someone is angry at me, even if they're not really and I'm just being stupid and I think they are, it triggers all this stuff from when I was a kid. I try to pretend I'm alright and ignore things that happen around me but sometimes I get dragged in and then I feel like a target is painted on me and it makes everything come back up and I can see it and I can feel it.

Reels of memory playing in my head... want to curl up and vanish... go away and disappear I'll say I'm alright for the moment and then it comes.

Stupid over-sensitive dumb opening mouth when I shouldn't me. I want to hide away.